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Workshops. The Up-and-Coming Essential Step for Sexual Addiction Treatment

I often see two types of clients coming through my office struggling with sexual addiction. There’s the man who pursues therapy because his life is out of order as a result of pornography. He has just realized it and if he is married, his wife has found out. There is also the guy who is stuck and doesn’t know quite how to totally break free. He is acting out every other month and knows it is linked to his stress levels, but hasn’t been able to make sense of why he continues acting out.

This is where a 3-day workshop comes into play. A workshop will jump start treatment for the man who has encountered ‘that’ moment, realizing possibly quite abruptly that he struggles with sexual addiction. Therapy is one of the core pieces of recovery; however, weekly therapy takes time, week to week, along with group work. Workshops provide 8-12 months of therapy in the 3 days of intense work. This 3-day detox from sources of temptation provides that injection the man needs to start recovery and make it last. The interior work, group work, and fundamental tools are all laid out for him and he can practically implement them into his own life.

As for the man needing help getting ‘unstuck,’ a workshop will give deeper insight into the emotional and spiritual underpinnings of sexual addiction that he might not have noticed. It will help him sift through words such as vulnerability, shame and connection. “The opposite of addiction is not sobriety, the opposite of addiction is connection” (Gabor Mate, 2008). A workshop will personalize his story and allow him to see where the addiction comes from. It will help him make sense of his life to break the patterns and stretch new relational muscles to help him connect.

Another word for sexual addiction is intimacy disorder. Whether he is at the beginning stages of recovery or stuck in the middle, a workshop is becoming the essential format to find freedom, identify patterns and undo the trauma that underlies the addiction. He will find new, healthy ways to connect, which is what he was looking for in the first place, before his connections with people became twisted by porn. “Behind every unhealthy behavior is a healthy desire.”

Peace,
Michael Ciaccio MS, LPC, SATP

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Why Confession Isn’t Helping Your Porn Problem – Part 2

In my previous post I wrote about distinctions in addiction patterns, specifically addressing biological, psychological, and trauma-based addiction.  One reason you or someone you are helping might be “stuck in the confessional” is that there is a psychological wound or trauma that needs to be addressed by a trained therapist.  Another reason people get “stuck in the confessional is that going to confession and receiving absolution has, in fact, become part of their acting out ritual.

When a behavior is compulsive, there is a pattern of out of control behavior that occurs over time.  A typical ritual involves the following:

Recognizing Rituals

Vulnerable time.  This is simply a time period or circumstances in which a person is more likely to give in to sexually acting out.  It could be the anniversary date of a traumatic event like the death of a parent, or some other kind of trauma.  It could also be when someone has not had enough sleep.  HALT and BLASTED are two acronyms used to identify vulnerable times (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired, or Bored, Lonely, Agitated, Stressed, Tired).  The vulnerable time makes a person more likely to be affected by triggers.

Trigger.  A trigger is an event, situation, or interaction that has been habitually paired with sexually acting out.  Being alone with unmonitored internet access, a difficult interaction with a supervisor or a girl in an internet ad can all be triggers for different people.

Emotional response.  After the trigger there can be an emotional pull toward acting out, and physiological arousal may begin

Thought. Then the person might start thinking about acting out.  They also might start thinking about not acting out, “I hope I don’t act out!”

Chemical dump.  Next comes the flood of chemicals that get the brain ready and focused for sexual behaviors.  Dopamine is released in anticipation of acting out.  Dopamine actually helps the brain to focus on one thing.  At this point it is very hard to break the pattern

Second thought.  This would typically be something like “Well I guess I can start again tomorrow, this will be the last time, I kind of deserve this” etc.

Behavior

Remorse.  Now the person feels great guilt, shame, and remorse

For a deeper look into Recognizing Rituals, watch this video.

Typical Ritual

Typically this plays out according to the following narrative:

Bob gets home after a long day.  He didn’t schedule any activities for the evening because he wasn’t sure exactly who he would want to hang out with or what he would want to do.  Now he has the entire evening ahead of him but no one to spend it with so he feels a bit lonely.  In response to his loneliness, he checks Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and a couple of different email accounts.  Each time he discovers that no one has reached out to him or messaged him.  Some of his buddies have posted a picture of themselves at a bar, but they didn’t invite Bob.  Now he feels lonely and rejected.  So he rechecks his social media accounts just to be sure that he didn’t miss anything really amazing in the past 45 seconds (ironic sarcasm intended).  This time there is a trigger.  A girl from his high school posted pictures of herself at the beach.  She has friends too.  So he checks out the profile of her friend.  Then he sees that his friend’s friend also has a pretty friend.  Soon Bob is mindlessly scrolling through a friend of a friend of a friend’s bikini pictures on social media.  After a while this gets old so he checks out YouTube.

At this stage Bob knows that he doesn’t want to go to a pornography site.  So he sticks to YouTube and starts watching steamy scenes from movies that he remembers from the past.  Then he moves on to the 10 most inappropriate commercials of 2017.  He thinks to himself “At least I’m not looking at porn.”  Then the chemical dump comes.  Bob continues watching inappropriate videos on YouTube and after about 5 more minutes, he thinks “I might as well be looking at porn.  I think I crossed the threshold of sin a few minutes ago.”  Then he asks this question:

CAN I GET TO CONFESSION? 

Asking this question is part of the ritual.  If the answer is yes, then he will go on to the next step.  He acts out with porn/masturbation.  Then he thinks, “I fell once so I might as well keep going until I can go to confession since I’m already in a state of mortal sin.”  There is more behavior, accompanied by lots of negative and shameful self-talk.  Until he gets to confession.

Bob goes to confession which is actually the end of the ritual process for him.  He resolves to never act out again.  7-10 days later he’s feeling vulnerable…….

The main lesson here is that for Bob and many others, going to confession has become blended with the acting out ritual.  From the addict’s point of view, it isn’t the thing that pulls him out of the ritual but it is the final step in the ritual.  Some young people even report that they “never feel loved except when going to confession after sexually acting out.”  Another piece of anecdotal evidence for this link is that when addicts get sober, they don’t go to confession.  The only time they have ever gone to confession in the past is when there was a sexual sin to confess, and oftentimes the only reason they went to confession was to be sure that they would be able to receive communion on Sunday.  The primary reason that they wanted to receive communion on Sunday was so that a parent, wife, or girlfriend would not notice them absenting themselves from communion—which would draw suspicion about why they didn’t receive.

Breaking the Pattern

So another reason confession may not be helping is that it’s part of the ritual.  We need to get the Ritual out of the ritual.  We need to do something different.  If you or a person you are working with identify with this cycle here are a couple of things you can do:

Non-sacramental confession.  Find a priest, mentor, parent, 12 step fellowship sponsor, or good friend to talk to about your struggle with pornography and masturbation.  Eventually, you will tell your story in its entirety and this will help you to be more honest with yourself and others.

Get the Ritual out of your ritual.  Go to confession weekly for a while.  There are many graces obtained there.  You also need to learn to experience the sacrament of reconciliation outside of the context of confessing sexual sins.

Make phone calls during your vulnerable time.  When I was young and we were bored or wondering what our friends were doing, we made phone calls (it was the best we had).  But we always found someone to talk to which immediately answered our feelings of loneliness.  Checking social media when you are lonely oftentimes leads to further feelings of rejection when someone realized that “no one has messaged me, tagged me, or liked my posts.”   This perception of rejection will only reinforce the addiction ritual.  Phone calls will break it.

The big three:  Successful people do three things.  Find a good spiritual director, Find a good counselor, and find a good group.  People who do all three have the most success.  If you want to get “unstuck”, beef up your plan.

For more information on rituals consult Dr. Kevin Skinner’s book Treating Pornography Addiction.

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Why Confession Isn’t Helping Your Porn Problem – Part 1

About a year ago, a priest approached me at a conference and made the following observation.  “My students today seem different than they were a few years ago.  It used to be that when someone was struggling with pornography and masturbation, I could recommend filters and a more structured prayer life and that would take care of it.  Today that advice doesn’t seem to be working as well.”  This observation is not an isolated one.  More and more priests are looking for resources to help their students in the confessional.  Blog posts are appearing calling on both traditional and non-traditional techniques for breaking free from pornography; Even Cosmopolitan magazine published a recent article on pornography as a public health crisis.  In this post, I will try to shed some light on why things are different and give some concrete steps to move toward freedom.

WHY YOU CAN’T TEACH YOUNG DOGS OLD TRICKS

With regard to the observation that young people today seem different, that is true.  They are.  On your typical college campus the freshmen were exposed to pornography between 8-10 years old.  The pornography they were exposed to is hard-core, high definition video.  The sex acts they are exposed to are more violent than what we were exposed to when I graduated high school in 1992.  It can be the case that a college freshman has been watching hardcore pornography regularly for 10 years before he arrives on campus.  So, at a minimum, he or she is more escalated in the kinds of pornography he is watching.  Escalation means that due to tolerance to the chemicals released in the brain through pornography and masturbation it now takes more pornography, or more intense pornography to achieve the same effect.  The cycle of escalation might start with still nude photos, then videos, “romantic” pornography, group sex, violent pornography, gay pornography, bestiality, etc.  One way to find out if escalation has taken place is to ask the question, “Do you watch pornography now that you once thought to be repulsive?”

Tolerance is one indicator that addiction is present.  Other indicators would be: repeated attempts to stop the behavior without success, negligence of duties or relationships due to the behavior, loss of relationships or a job due to the behavior, significant loss of time, obsessing about the behavior, continuing the behavior despite consequences, experiencing withdrawal symptoms when the behavior ceases (insomnia, irritability, mood swings, pain in the genital area, painful urination can all be withdrawal symptoms.  Having three of these indicators could mean that a person has developed an addiction.  If you or someone you are helping would like to take a more detailed assessment, I recommend you take the Sexual Addiction Screening Test at the following web address: https://www.recoveryzone.com/tests/sex-addiction/SAST/index.php

3 kinds of addicts

Doug Weiss, Ph.D. identifies six types of addicts, here I will focus on three.  The biological addict is the person who grew up in a relatively stable home, had good relationships, no trauma.  They discovered pornography and developed a vicious habit.  This kind of addict was more prevalent when I was growing up.  Someone discovers pornography and masturbation in their teen years, the habit gets ingrained over time, and may or may not develop into a full-fledged addiction.  This is the kind of person that can fight vice with virtue.  Filters and a more structured spiritual life oftentimes pull the person out of this.  This is the person that the priest in my opening paragraph was able to help relatively easily years ago.

The second addict is psychological.  He or she uses pornography in order to avoid emotions.  Sometimes it is used specifically to alter a mood, or to not feel anything at all by “numbing out.”  This person may be triggered not only be sexually explicit materials but also by feeling unaffirmed, experiencing a fight between his/her parents, or even by everything seeming relatively ok.  In addition to behavior change interventions, this person will most likely also need counseling in order to address the psychological difficulties that drive the addiction process.

The third addict is the trauma-based addiction.  This person uses porn as a way of re-enacting trauma that they have experienced.  The girl who watches violent porn may do so because she has been the victim of sexual violence in her past.  The different scenario genres available on pornographic websites is an indicator that more and more people may be looking to re-enact or address past traumatic events (babysitter, step-mom, step-sibling, teacher-student, etc.).  If there is past trauma or any kind of emotional, physical, or sexual abuse the person will likely not find freedom unless he/she seeks counseling from a trained professional who is experienced in working with sexual addiction/sexual trauma.

Given these distinctions, it makes sense that our traditional strategies for addressing purity/sexual sin do not seem to be working anymore.  According to Weiss, less than 15% of addicts are merely biological ones.  More and more of our young people are growing up in difficult family situations, and more and more of them have some kind of trauma before leaving high school.  Peer to Peer sexual abuse is becoming more common as young people are acting out what they see on the internet.  Some professionals also believe that exposure to hardcore pornography at a young age (on average before the onset of puberty) is also a form of sexual trauma.

If you or someone you are trying to help seems to be “stuck in the confessional” it may be because addiction is present.  If that is the case, it is highly recommended that in addition to the spiritual tools you are employing, you seek professional help.  To find a counselor in your area check out THIS ARTICLE.

TO LEARN MORE ABOUT DR DOUG WEISS AND HIS “TYPES OF ADDICTS” CLICK HERE. YOU CAN ALSO FIND A LINK to buy his book: The Final Freedom.

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Overcoming Guilt and Shame in Recovery

Two primary factors that often keep people from seeking help for pornography addiction is guilt and shame. While they often act together, they are two very different emotions.

Guilt focuses on the behavior while shame focuses on the person. Both need to be resolved for a healthy recovery.

Guilt

Guilt is an emotion that focuses on actions. It is the emotion that says, “Okay, you’ve done something wrong and now you have to correct it, fix it or clean it up.”As uncomfortable as this emotion may be, it is actually very healthy. It requires a person to take responsibility for their actions and atone for them. To do this, one must embrace the virtues of honesty, humility, responsibility, courage, faith, hope and love.

Taking responsibility for one’s addiction and recovery can be very healing for individuals and for relationships. It shows that you understand how wrong your actions were and that you are taking positive steps to end your pornography use.

This resolves your guilt and can reunite you to loved ones. The same effect happens in our relationship with God. When we sin, it damages our relationship with God. Here is where God uses guilt to bring us back to him. To be reconciled with God, we must admit our sins, take responsibility for them, and confess them. In many cases our penance can be to make amends for our sins. By confessing your sexual sins and doing penance, you resolve your guilt and are reunited with God.

Addressing guilt is also an important part of the 12 steps of recovery. Steps 4 through 10 state we:

4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.

9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.

While it can be difficult to take responsibility for an addiction, doing so actually strengthens a person. It takes the addiction out of the darkness and brings it into the light. This can diminish much of its power over you. While some people may be hurt and angry with you for a while; most will forgive. In the end they will respect you for admitting your guilt and resolving it.

Guilt can help you address your addiction while still affirming your value as a person and as a child of God.

Shame

Shame is the emotion that focuses on the person. It is the emotion that says, “You did something wrong and because of it you are a bad person. You need to hide so that no one will ever know how bad you really are.” This is not of God.

Ultimately, this is a tool of Satan to keep a person trapped in his addiction. It fuels the five faulty core beliefs by which many addicted people live:

1. I’m unworthy of being loved

2. If people really knew me, they would reject me

3. I can’t count on anyone, including God, to meet my needs

4. I must find something that I can control that will meet my needs

5. Pornography/sex is my greatest need and source of comfort.

Shame can result from sinful acts you’ve committed, such as viewing pornography. It can also develop out of sinful acts committed against you. For example, a person who was abused as a child might feel responsible for it and develop a deep sense of shame as a result. Both sources of shame can lead a person into addiction.

Regardless of where your shame came from, it’s important to know that your worth as a person is not determined by your actions or the actions of others.

When God created you he instilled in you an infinite worth that no one can diminish. It doesn’t matter what kinds of sexual sins you’ve committed or how often you’ve committed them, you are still a good person. There is no need to hide. God still loves you. He is always ready to take you back and cleanse you from your sin.

As you take responsibility for your addiction, you will find many other people who still love you regardless of what you’ve done. Letting go of shame can be very difficult or many addicted people. If shame is a major stumbling block for you, I recommend you consult with a therapist and/or a priest. They can help you let go of your shame and bring your addiction out into the light so you can overcome it!

Embracing Your True Identity

It’s important for all people who are addicted to pornography to understand that you are not defined by your addiction. Guilt and shame are proof of that! Guilt focuses on the action, not the person.

By addressing your guilt and making amends you actually strengthen your ability to recover from your addiction. Others will also respect you for your work in recovery. Shame is not of God and thus does not define who you are.

Thus, not matter what your addiction has lead you to do, God still sees you as his beloved child. This is how you also need to view your self!

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